Sunday, April 15, 2018

I thought's by the pool



The winds are getting warmer by the day, summer is fast approaching...I rented a beach house close to the sea obviously.
As I'm writing this I am sitting by the pool, thinking about what I would like to happen this summer..
My second life has changed so much since I first started almost 8 years ago.
8 years ago I found second life after watching a documentary.... And it changed my life forever.
The first 3 days of my second life I didn't go to sleep. it's kind of funny thinking back to that now:)

It is also sad to think about that time in the way....I had so many friends... friends that I don't have in my second life anymore.
I even had a mom and a dad....I lost touch with them over many years... and when we finally reconnected it felt like I was intruding on their lives, it felt like they had moved on...Even talking about it now brings tears to my eyes...They are truly the ones I should thank because they made the person I am today.
Many people have been coming and going through my life the past 8 years many of them have included tears and heartbreak unfortunately, But all of them have had a part in making me the strong person I am today and they have given me the self confidence I have today, believe it or not.

When it comes to second life there is a particular subject that really is close to my heart and I feel like I need to touch on that:
I would say that about 98% of second life residents think of second life it's just a game....I can tell you right now that second life for me it's more than just a game.... it actually saved my life, I won't get to details what I mean by that, but  second life is such a big part of who I am as a person that I would never say just a game because it's not.
I have said so many times before that the moment I log into second life ,I don't play a role ,I don't pretend to be something I'm not and I don't take on a personality. I don't shut off my feelings and I don't detach myself, and I certainly don't talk about myself in third person.

What you get from me is true feelings... and true desires... and true happiness ...what you also get from me is true sadness ...and true anger... and true heartbreak.
 I don't hide my feelings because I'm in second life.
So what I'm trying to say is don't take me for granted.
 And if you hurt my feelings just know that you're actually hurting my real feelings and not some pixilated once.
Tessa winkler is me and not some third person even though you might think so... but I don't!


Now that I have touched on that subject let's get back to what I would like to happen for this summer:

I am actually pretty happy about the way things are in my second life at the moment... There is not much I want to change or but I want to happen in particular but  of course I would like to have a summer fling or 2 maybe even a boyfriend....Even though I have learned to be independent in second life and to not depend on a man...

I guess my last wish is too have a man to enjoy a pregnancy with.
Let's hope these tiny little wishes do come true!
In the mean time I am going to enjoy the summer!
/Tessa

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